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The word of God says this "

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen… Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."

In my last post I lost it, I lost it internally and emotionally.  But praise God for His word.  Praise God when He sends you a comforter.  My last post I have to admit I meant every word in my being but I have forgiven and have also ask for forgiveness.  Being wounded for an animal I know is painful. Painful and they can not speak in words but in growls and groans.  Being wounded for a human is quite to opposite, we scream, we cry, we fight, and we sink to a low that most would not come up from.  But God.  God in His power can comfort, release and restore you.  The first step to restoration is forgiving your offender then yourself. The second is asking and knowing in faith that God has forgiven you, then walk away from it.  There are things and situations that we allow ourselves to get in and God will allow us to be in it, for a while.  Then He in His power will snatch you back, remove that thing you thought was the prize.  Its the test.  Its the molding and polishing for better.  The better could come in many forms, the better could be a new attitude.  But know this, all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to HIS purpose. 
 So I say to you when you have been slammed, go ahead cry, scream.  Be angry but do not sin and if you sin, humble yourself and go to the Father, He will help you, carry you and love you past it.
 The past 48 hours have been yet another journey for me. My eyes are open though my heart is on the mend. I stop running the race but I am still on the track. A journey of strength, of weakness, of rage and exhaustion.  Today, I praise God for it all, today I rise and thank Him for Who He is.

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