Trust The Process

Do you believe that delays are not denials? Are you convinced that you can achieve anything that you set out to accomplish? How bad do you want that thing? If you are like me, you will look at each step that you take and no matter how far you go, no matter the setbacks or detours, you will look in that mirror and say to yourself, I AM A WINNER. Say that out loud, shout it, I AM A WINNER.

Welcome back to The Unique View. Happy 2019 and I pray that each one of you are living the immeasurable and blessed moments of today and always. I am back to inspire and encourage you through my journey through this wonderful thing called life. Thank you for peeping in. I appreciate you!

Since my last post in July 2018, I took a break from a few projects to gain some clarity about what it is that I needed to do, and why I was doing it. You MUST know your why. I had too many irons in the fire AGAIN, and with no shock factor I watched some things spontaneously combust. I wasn’t shocked because I knew that I was trying to do too many things resulting in nothing being completed. Who said I wasn’t Superwoman? When you get clear and allow God to be the orchestrator you have the ability to see a thing as a thing and call it such. No filters, no illusions, no excuses. It is all about the reality and walking ahead victoriously even if you don’t see the finish line.  Like this, I planned to finish my first memoir by December 2018. That didn’t happen, and I am okay with that. Do you see that? You must be okay with the setbacks and detours.

On April 6, 2016, after struggling in silence for many years, I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression and Anxiety. This explained a lot for me. I emotionally and physically broke down and I could not pull it together on my own. I was operating in codependency. I was living with severe chronic pain. I still live with the pain, but it is more manageable. I was operating from a broken heart and a shatter mind. I was operating from a dark and very empty place, and I never knew how to take care of me. I wore the mask. I smiled when I wanted to scream. I said that I was okay when I was severely devastated.  March 2017, I relocated to Miami, Florida and gained a whole new perspective as to what it truly meant to shatter a comfort zone. Moving 3000 miles away from everything that you know and are familiar with can be a shock to the system for many. I know people who tell me, they can’t do it. To be still for 2 years in an unfamiliar land was the best thing that I could have done for my mental health. It was wilderness moment. It is now April 2019 and I am back in Tacoma, Washington which was not planned, that’s another story. I will say this; I truly have a new resolve and a new awareness of who I am. I know what it is to be pruned. I know what it is to be truly humble in your surroundings. Most importantly, I know even more who’s I am. A soldier for Christ, and soldiers must to train for WAR. To see the victory in anything you must train to win. Your training is not always on soft ground. It is in choppy waters and windy fields. It is on the tops of high rises and in the lows of dark valleys. You will fight giants, period. The key is using the tools for the job to win. Look at David. A shepherd boy with a slingshot and some rocks. Tools for the job. Goliath, the loud mouth giant of the land, the job. David was unmoved by his size and stature. He wasn’t shaking in his sandals because of the sound of his voice. No, he stood with resolve, twirled that slingshot, aimed, and SMACK. Right between the eyeballs. Will power and determination, the win.  You can decide how long you train, but know this, God orders the steps of a good man (woman). Surrender to Him.  March 2017 was when I did not let the fear hold me back regardless of how I felt. Touching down in the sunshine state and adjusting was exactly what I needed.  There were days I wanted to run back to where I came from. Why? Fear. It is just that simple.  If I had ran back, I would not have come into the true manifestation of knowing who I was and all that I was capable of. I am still growing. Let me remind you, David started out as the shepherd boy, and then he became, King David.

Beloveds, I need you to get this if you don’t get anything else out my posts. Take care of your mental health. Our mental health plays a key role in how we navigate through this journey called life. Don’t be ashamed of the PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, Clinical Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Schizophrenia, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Self-Mutilation, or any other condition that causes us to be off track. Accept the help, educate yourself, and get active so that you can be the best version of only who you can be. No, it won’t be easy, but YOU ARE WORTH IT. You don’t have to remain where you are, in lifeless situations. You don’t have to accept the diagnosis as final. You don’t have to remain in abusive situations of any kind. DOMESTIC VIOLENCE IS NEVER OKAY. NEVER! You don’t ever have to stay connected to anyone or anything that does not serve your greater good. You don’t have to accept apologies that do not have the results of changed a behavior. Everything within you is not for you, its for that child watching you. It’s for that man or woman in the coffee shop contemplating suicide or murder of another. It’s for that young mother at her wits end. It’s for that woman or man who was raped and violated. It’s for the teenage boy or girl confused about their identity in this ugly world.  It’s for that man who does not see a way out feeling as if he has not power. Get clear! Get focused!  And one last thing, NO EXCUSES. You CAN.

In Love I Stand

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