On a scale of 1 to 10 my pain level most days are above that. To wake up each morning in physical pain can take a toll on your mind and your heart. One day you would like to just wake up and not feel an ounce of pain in your body so you can start your day on a positive note mentally and physically. Most days it does not happen. Your mind wonders will I have to deal with this for the rest of my life, am I trusting God, do I have faith?. I can honestly say NO. Waking up today I realized that sleep was not pleasent, I tossed and turned. I got up and moved around searching for comfort. In doing that through the night means, I had to start over. Start over trying to get good rest without a strong sedative. Living with arthritus and degenerative disk disease and lets not talk about insomnia, I am reminded of the death, bariul and reserection of Jesus Christ. Television can only show you what they think Jesus endured and in reading we can only imagine. We will never know for certain what our Lord and Savior indured in those days leading up to his final breath.
So why am I who have freedom of speech, movement of my limbs, air to breath and let me say again freedom in this life so disturbed right now with my issues? No I am angry and I am exhausted. I move daily in pain unless I take something to mask it. I lay down in pain, unless I take something to, mask it. My nights are not peaceful or restful and lets not talk about RIM sleep, what it that? It scares me to plan something and commit because I never know how the next day will start out. Getting up for work at 3 AM so I can be at work at 6 AM, well you get it right, its a preperation.
Praise God for Jesus. The devil is a lie. Though in my physical body I am in pain and I am exhausted and yes I want to scream from the mountain tops and in the grocery stores. I will stand up pump my fist and pour out my heart of hearts and grab hold of the fact that I am healed by His strips, I can say it all day long and sing it off key. I will praise God and I will worship Him. I will grab hold of the blood that was shed for me and for all of us and say, this too shall pass. I know it was the blood, I know it was the blood, I know it was the blood for me. One day when I was lost, He died upon the cross, I know it was the blood for me.
Hebrews 8:22-25 NLT
22. Let us go right in to the presence of God, with true hearts fully trusting him. For our evil consciences have been sprinkled with Christ's blood to make us clean, and our bodies have been washed with pure water.
23. Without wavering, let us hold tightly to the hope we say we have, for God can be trusted to keep his promises.
24. Think of ways to encourage one another to outburst of love and good deeds.
25. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, encurage and warn each other, especially now that th eday of his coming back again is drawing near.
Be Blessed In The Lord