A dark cloud seems to follow me; the cloud of despair. Not that anything catastrophically is pressing in my life, it is taking place around me, causing this dark cloud to insist on being my shadow. What I do know it this, I am aware and the Holy Spirit is my guide. I must stay connected to the source and trust the process. I could allow myself to get into a frenzy, but that will defeat the purpose of what God is doing in and around my life.In our spiritual walk there are 3-keys that we need to be reminded of, Chronos, Kairos, and Pleroo. Let’s go deeper. The three words are of greek origin. I encourage you to look them up and learn more. Study to show yourself approved. God is all about timing and nothing that He does or even allows is out of His timing. Look at Jesus, when Mary was informed that she would be giving birth, she was not planning that, God’s timing. Moses being pushed away in a basket down a river, to be taken in by the Pharaoh’s daughter, God’s timing. Do you see that God set forth a chain of events, at a specific time for everything? Timing! Let’s look at the 3-keys.
As I sit to complete this post after starting a few days ago, I am heart broken due to the loss of a family friend's child. I know death well. and it is something that no longer takes over in my spirit, so I thought.Today will be the anniversary of my oldest sister's passing, March 13th will forever be etched in my memory, along with the dates of others who have been called home too soon.
My heart can not grip this loss and it surely has ripped away any emotional protection I may
have tried to erect. Who was I kidding? I can't place a period where God has a comma. Through
it all, trust God and His timing. Though I may not understand the process, I am sold out on the
process, letting God do what He does so well. Mold and make. Prune and snip. As it states in
Ecclesiastes, there is a time and a place for everything under the sun. Everything.
Brothers and sisters, stop what you are doing right now, call someone you have been meaning to call. Hug your family and friends and say I love you with meaning. Our lives are vapors and vanish we all will. I speak this of you just as I am speaking this into my spirit. I too must do better in the area of really loving. I too must be available and present. I know what regret feels like. It happens when someone you truly do love passes on, but you missed the mark. Now, I get that there are some people you just can't have that deep relationship with and if they are bringing you pain and negativity, then by all means, love from a distance. I have learned that some people are not meant to trail behind you into the next season that God has in store for us. Trust the process.